ahhhhh someone slap me!!! shucks la. im feeling so damn damn damn guilty now!! how could i ever speak without thinking!! really damn apologetic towards my cute fishball junior!! imagine people tell me the same thing after a performance, i think i would cry!! haiz~ how could i do that!? SLAP ME!!!

that aside, since you have decided to let things stay the way they are now, i've decided to do the same. im not gonna waste precious time thinking bout it every night, guessing your thoughts and getting upset when im reminded of the wonderful memories we once had. i really really don't know what more i can do to salvage the situation.. but i really must admit i was super sad that night.

so im sorta glad guiltiness has overtaken my sadness. ha, which is not exactly a good thing.

i love you, junior!! and juniors!! (:

caught Phantom of the Opera yesterday~!! it was a great experience!! and i guess it's really worth it to buy an expensive ticket cos the view was soooo goood. still remember watching Forbidden City a few years back and i wasnt totally into the show cos the 3lites were at the circle seats and the view was so bad. anw we were at the fifth row from the front and the effects was just so right cos the chandelier was above us! haha and when it dropped down and swung to the stage, we were like -gaaaassp- i liked the settings alot!! esp the one at the lake! haha. nice nice niceee. though the smoke was quite bad, haha. was contemplating whether or not to buy the soundtrack but i didnt get it in the end. was thinking i wouldnt be bothered to listen after some time.

another week at work! im rather happy working there cos i get to see my friends! busy weekend ahead with two concerts and a shopping trip! (:

okays gotta memorize some theory and practise my songs!

ok i have no idea why blogger is still so konky or is it just my comp. guess it doesnt matter.

and so seok's eager to see my post about ntcs2. haha. but darn, im totally over with how i felt that day. so i shall just do a feelingless narration. haha. anyway, was having dinner with seok and jing at Bugis Mos the other day and while we were just settled down with our food and were all ready to eat, i suddenly caught sight of this girl who's from css2. (pardon me for being so bored at home for the past one week that i had to resolve to reading posts at the channel U site.) ok but im not the only bored one cos jing recognised her as well. so we were happily eating when to our horror, we realised the whole bunch of them were from css2. and 2 girls started singing very loudly. and i dont really care what they were trying to do.. duet, harmonizing whatever. but the people around them who felt irritated, started glaring at them. and those people included us. we were kinda disgusted with them. top 20 so what? if css made them proud and so full of themselves, then i think they joined the competition for the wrong reasons. so haolian infront of others and yet act humble infront of fans? that's just so hypocritical. anyway we continued watching the show and realised that they had to hug each other when they bid goodbye. now they think they are on tv. hmm *raises eyebrows* and now i sound like a kaypoh.

yikes enough bout them.

gonna have two firsts this week! sunday will be my first piano lesson after my last piano lesson in p2! and monday would be my first day working at AIG after resting for 2 weeks! hahaha. im definitely looking forward to my first piano lesson and kinda excited to work at AIG (even though it's so far away) cos there will be 7 AJCians working there when 3 of us join them on monday! and i hope ebuddy's not filtered off the computer i'll be using! haha.

went down to SCH today to watch the JCs syf. AJCO as expected achieved Gold. and i know many of them were visibly upset that they did not get the Honours. but i guess it was a job well done, as compared to the poor standards they put up for rehearsal (i heard?). but i honestly think that there are too many Golds this year. out of 14 schools, onli 1 sch got bronze while 3 or 4 (or 5 or 6? haha ok i think maybe 4 or 5) got silver? and the rest were Golds, with Tj and Hc having Honours. will be looking forward to their concert on 25th! and i will not mention the fact that it's held at the school's audi. tsktsk. the place's probably more for us seniors to relive the memories back in school. those were the days~ lecture after lecture.

met qimin and huimin for dinner yesterday! will be meeting zl, qm and rach again this sat~ whee~

bold persistance.

you are beautiful. but your personality reflects your ugliness.

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